I had a personal aha moment today. It feels like I need to voice it to myself and potentially rumble with it some more….. but here it is:
MATH IS MESSY!
I’m going to say that again…. Math is messy! Guess what else? Teaching it is even messier.
At some point in time, we got the impression that math is a procedural, organized, and logical subject. We’ve gotten so used to thinking and believing that math is black and white. The answer is wrong or it’s right. If you follow these steps, you will be successful. These beliefs have then shaped the way we learn and teach math.
Shoot – let’s talk Pi. Seriously – Pi is a messy number. We shorten it to 3.14 but the truth is that is not an exact approximation of Pi and truncating it to 3.14 makes out answers wildly inaccurate. Pi is a never ending number with no patterns. It’s messy. At the same time, it’s fascinating and people celebrate it. How can we have a number that has no pattern and never ends?
Not convinced with just pi? Take a look at this list of unsolved math problems. https://www.popularmechanics.com/science/math/g29251596/impossible-math-problems/
Think about it – what is it that mathematicians truly love about math? What drives a person to go and dedicate their lives to studying math? Do we really think that it is always knowing the answer? Perhaps it is more the fact that there are problems to be solved and applications to be modeled.
Also think about what actually drives a person away from math? What is it that allows people to say “math is hard” and have it be so socially acceptable. It’s messy. We’re not comfortable with messy. As educators, when something is messy, we naturally try to find ways to make it less messy. We find ways to make it more accessible to our students… Today – I realized – in attempting to help we’re actually perpetuating a social norm where hating math is normalized and acceptable and and struggling with math is not.
I have a couple of theories about this….
- We measure success in math ALL wrong. We measure success in math by a number of right answers out of wrong answers. We measure it by how well we can follow procedures and apply those procedures to concocted story problems that have very little relevance or interest to students.
- We focus too much on what they can’t do. We only fuel this culture of it’s ok to not know math because, even as educators, we get caught up on the things our kids can’t do. We dwell on how much they don’t retain and in which case we end up remediating…. and remediating… and remediating. We continue to teach them the same few ways that never clicked because we’re out of ideas. We haven’t seen it any differently.
- We are ashamed of failure. We as humans don’t like to admit when we fail. Truth is, sometimes teaching math constantly feels like failure. Our kids don’t get it. Our test scores aren’t high enough. They don’t remember what we taught them yesterday. After a while, we put up walls. It’s easier to blame the kids, the parents, the system, or a multitude of other things than it is to own that failure and embrace that failure.
- We have tried to clean up mess. When we work on making math “accessible” to all students we have done so by cleaning it up. I’m thinking of it in regards to raising my own children. Getting my kids to do chores is HARD! Getting them to do their chores properly feels near impossible. So sometimes, we do the heavy lifting for the kids instead of teaching them how to do the heavy lifting because it’s easier for us and frankly less frustrating. The same happens in our math classrooms. Our intentions are good but we inadvertently do the heavy lifting for our students and never truly teach them how to.
Here I am with theories. I’m also not going to claim to know all of the answers. However, moving forward in my own practice and reflections, I’m going to be doing some thinking of my own. Much of it right now comes down to my learnings from Brené Brown and Jo Boaler.
Moving into my role as an instructional coach, I have been listening to a lot of Brené Brown. If you don’t know her, her work is awesome and I would highly recommend her books. One of the things I have been connecting with is her work on vulnerability. I think both math teaching and math learning involves vulnerability.
My own professional development as a math educator brings me back to Jo Boaler and her connections on learning math as it relates to brain research. I would say what I connect with the most with her is the idea of struggle and how struggle is actually what helps the brain grow and learn.
To pair these together, in my own brain, I see it this way:
- As educators, we are going to have to be vulnerable in order to reflect on our own practices. We are going to have to be vulnerable enough to be willing to change and improve on those practices. We might even need to be vulnerable enough to ask for input on those practices.
- As math teachers, we need to quit cleaning up the dang mess for our students. It’s good for them to struggle. The brain forms connections when it struggles.
- Our classrooms need to be safe places where students [and teachers] can fail over and over. We need to remove the shame from failure in a math classroom and failure should be accepted as a norm.
- Focus on what students can do and trust the students more to learn. My master’s research says that when students are held to higher standards and given proper supports, they will grow. Be vulnerable and step out of your comfort zone. Embrace the mess and provide “as needed” supports as we ask our students to rise to a challenge. I’ll put money on the fact that the results will surprise us.
Therefore, I’m going to say: embrace the mess that is teaching math. When we actually embrace the mess, we might just find something beautiful in all of it rather than try to control it. It reminds me of a Brené Brown quote too….


















